Sweet sweet baby

I have a girlfriend of mine whos whole world came crashing down on Monday. She went in for her weekly check up because she was 39 weeks along, she was due today. When she got to the doctor they tried finding baby Aidens heartbeat and couldn't. So they did 3 ultrasounds and said he had passed away. She delivered him on Tuesday. She got a photographer to take pictures of him and the time spent with him...let me tell you what I cried my little heart out through the slide show.
My heart aches for her. I could only imagine what it must feel like to lose your baby. Ikaika is my whole world, and to have that taken away - I would die.
You never realize how delicate our lives are and how they can be taken away from us. I sometimes lose my patience with my monster, but I am now thankful I get those moments of him driving me crazy
Tina, I don't know if you read my blog but you are one strong, amazing, beautiful, mother and I admire you. I pray your pain goes away. I am so sorry this happened to you.  I hope one day you and Joe can move forward from this tragic situation and have a little brother or sister for Aiden.

Michelle Featherstone + Sweet Sweet Baby

Sweet Sweet Baby, I said maybe
Maybe you should stay with me
Sweet Sweet Baby, I think maybe
Maybe you shouldn’t leave
Sweet Sweet Baby, I go crazy
Crazy when I think of you
Sweet Sweet Baby, I go crazy
If I can cuddle up to you

So baby, oh baby,
Please don’t go
Yeah baby oh sweet baby
Please don’t go

You’re the only one
You’re the only one
You’re the only one
For me
You’re the only one
Yeah the only one
You’re the only one
For me

Sweet Sweet baby, Can you save me
Save me from a night without you
Sweet Sweet baby, Can you save me
The way that I am going to save you

So baby, oh baby
Please don’t go
Yeah baby oh sweet baby

You’re the only one
You’re the only one
You’re the only one
For me
You’re the only one
Yeah the only one
You’re the only one
For me
You’re the only one
Yeah the only one
You’re the only one
For me

funnn with ze cousinnn

Sooo happy 4th of July everyone!!  :) 


Today hasn't been very eventful in the Davis casa.  At 9 am Kaika was in a kiddie parade in our neighborhood.  They all got on their bikes (the little ones walked) and rode around our block...Kaika made it to the end of our street and walked back home.  He had fun though.  It was really cute.  Then we went swimming, and all the time I was trying to get Kaika to take a nap.  He felt that he was a big enough boy to stay up 6 hours straight.  He NEVER does that, he stays up 2 in the am takes his first nap and then like 4 hours later takes a nap.  Not today.  So I've been wanting to make these cookies for the last couple weeks.  They are Oreo stuffed Chocolate Chip cookies.  

Mine didn't turn out nearly as pretty as these did.  My cousin Tyler helped me make them.  We're gonna open up a bakery. HA SIKE! But we do make a good team.  Today Sonny has to go back to Ely, so in a few hours I am going to go drive him down to either Coyote Springs or the Loves gas station to meet up with his friend.  I'm not looking forward to that. :( 

Here is a picture of Ty Ty and I being retarded. JAM SESHHH HOLLLA! 

HOLY COW I'M STILL ALIVE!!

Well hi guys!! I'm so disappointed in myself.  I have neglected my blog beyond belief. Oye!! It's just so hard to keep up with this let alone play on the computer with a ONE YEAR OLD!! Yep Kaika is one now.  Where did the time go!? I miss my little baby boy, because he's not a baby boy anymore.  Today at the doctors they had him stand against the wall to measure his height.  AND not only did they do that, but they said his height in feet opposed to the inches they do for infants.  **insert dramatic tears here**

kaika when he was born! 6 lbs 15 oz 20 inchs long

Kaika and mommy at Uncle Ian and Auntie Lo's wedding.
Year old, 23 lbs 2 1/2 ft tall!

So man, I don't even know where to begin, geeze the last post I made about our lives was in January.  I've got a whole lot of catching up to do.  **big breath**


Kaika started crawling and walking in April, that was a VERY busy exhausting month for mommy.  Baby proofing is nearly impossible.  We've got ourselves an electrician on our hands. And a chef, a geologist, a janitor (woohoo let's hope he keeps up this passion for sweeping when it comes time for chores!) Sonny got his associates in applied science! YAY BABE! I, well I keep the house a flowin.  Although I found out that I could possibly be able to use my GI Bill now due to a new change they made to it.  They say if you've been in for 180 days or more you can use your GI Bill, well guess what folks, I was in waaaay past that. KAAACHING.


Sonny got the job in Ely at the prison! I am so proud of him.  He's in the academy up there right now and Kaika and I are still at the in laws until we can find a place to move to. (DO NOT get me started on that, it's sooo stressing me out. Just check out the zits on my face. gahhh)  Although I am scared that something may happen to him I keep reminding myself I'm not married to no sissy lah lah I'm married to a hunky, buff, brave Hawaiian who knows how to handle himself and someone else if they try to get loco on him.  :) I actually am looking forward to moving out to Ely.  Although I LOVE being a SAHM I am going to work part time up there at the grooming salon I used to work at. YAAAAY!! So I'll be able to live both my dreams.  Staying at home with my perfect little monster, and cleaning dirty doggies! 

kaika swimming!! it's his favorite thing to do. 

opening his first present!! 

Kaika now has 4 teeth, 2 one the top (with 2 more coming in) with a giant gap right between those bad boys! SORRY SON! and the 2 on the bottom.  He knows how to use them and isn't afraid of it either.  He does not hold back.  If he gets mad at you he gets this crazy look in his eyes, starts shaking his head, screams and then tries to bite.  Shizzz hurts! We just celebrated his first birthday and man birthday partys are stressful! We had it at Sonnys brother Joeys house in Vegas.  It was fun, we went with a Toy Story theme because kaika loves Toy Story.  We had a bouncer (thanks to uncle and auntie joey and joy) some hamburgers, hot dogs, fruits, veggies, stuffed cream cheese jalapenos wrapped in bacon (big hit) cake, ice cream, cupcakes, a pinata (which I forgot to pull out for the kids to take a whack at) and Kaika got tons of amazing gifts from everyone.  He loved all of them.  He got a refrigerator toy with farm animals, he likes to eat them.  A sandbox! A ball pit, another stand up toy that makes music thingie mabob, some clothes, books, kid got some awesome gifts. Over all it was a great time, except I was exhausted. lol Kaika LOVES to growl and he growls at EVERYONE and EVERYTHING.  He doesn't care, he will growl at you if he wants.  He knows how to shake his head no no, and point his finger and say no no to you.  He's a crack up!! Aww I love my bug.  He's sleeping right now, and writing this I'm smiling and I want to go cuddle with him so I am going to go BUT I promise to keep everyone updated more.

this was his birthday invitations!

mommy and kaika at his birthday party!

day ocho

Day Eight: Post a photo that makes you laugh. What made this moment so funny?

This picture is not the original picture I wanted to post, BUT I can't freakin find it.  So this one will have to do. sigggggh. 

So this person you see here is Carlos.  Carlos and I met in the Air Force... we met the day we left boot camp.  We both had the same orders so we were wing men for each other.  Well he was pretty much my life saver.  I had the worst sun burn I've ever had and he carried my bags plus his. Well we had 2 other people with us, Whenrey (I hated that beezy and Campbell. He hated us. lol) Well some how because I have the WORST luck ever, only Carlos and I missed our flight and ended up going on a different flight. Way later. Like waaaaay later.  And we had the orders for all four of us so the other two couldn't go on base without us. haha suckers.  Anyway, from the first day we met we became best buddies.  We were each others partners in crime, to say the least. We were always up to no good, in Germany we would convince people to swallow tablespoons of cinnamon and watch them barf. hahah or we convinced each other to let him punch me in the butt to try and make me crap my pants, BUT only if i could slap him in the face with a ruler first. hahahaha omg. hahahahahahahah I'm seriously dying right now laughing so hard. So this picture is hilarious to me because, you see, Carlos doesn't have blond hair...in fact during this picture he had no hair.  Good ol old fashion military cut.  He's in civilian close cause he's in phase 2 and we could were civis on the weekends.  Anyway, a friend of ours had wigs because she had short hair.  Well Los put this wig on a few different times.  And it was just hilarious.  In this picture he's acting like a surfer dude.  God I can hear him talking in his surfer voice right now.  Freakin a. The original picture I wanted was him in this wig, wearing a white shirt, no hat, and rubbing his nips. Its seriously so hilarious. oh man.  Gosh, I have made some of the greatest memories with that kid.  Not only on our way to tech school, in tech school, and in Germany and the places we've traveled.  He's a great guy, and I'm so lucky and thankful to have him as a best friend.  Love you Carlos Michael Pablo Najar Junior the II.  Thank you for being so awesome, and sharing some of the best times ever. 

****I FOUND THE PICTURE!! THANKS TO CARLOS. hahahahah he's such an ugly girl. lol I love it. hahahahahahaha****

K have a good day <3 

day seven

Day Seven: Post a photo of your most treasured item. Why is this item special to you? How did you come to own this item?

 

Now, before you go assuming that my most prized possession is my son pump the breaks! Although he is the GREATEST THING EVER he is not who, or should I say what I'm talking about. I am talking about that wonderful amazing silky blankey he is wrapped up so preciously in. That blanket was(is) mine.  My mother made it when she was a young girl, around 8 or so.  And then she gave it to me! :) Well I carried that thing with me EVERY WHERE. I'm not even exaggerating when I say every where.  It was so giant too...God I love that blanket.  Anyway, in 8th grade my best friend was getting ready to move to Montana and we thought our lives were going to end with out each other.  So what does my smart ass think of?!!? I decide to rip my blanket in half and give her half of it "so she will always have a piece of me with her" We were so gay! Anyway, my sophomore year my mother successfully threw away my half.  Now I say successfully because she had tried numerous amounts of times prior to that at throwing it away...and failed...miserably. SUCKER! Whenever she would throw it away my dad, or my step dad, or someone else would get it out of the trash and give it back. AFTER THEY WASHED IT OF COURSE...although I would have slept with it no matter what.  Well Sophomore year I let my little brother Michael sleep with it because his magically disappeared.  I had ripped a hole through it so I could wear it like an apron and so she couldn't throw it away while I was sleeping.  Clearly my little bro didn't get the memo...hide that blanket whenever you are not going to be home.  She threw it away. *insert sad face here*  Well a few months ago Ikaika and I went to go visit my BFF Ashley and she pulled it out of her storage and we went down memory lane looking at pictures, and reading notes of how boy crazy we were, and how much we loved each other, and then she handed over the blanket. I wanted to cry I was so excited.  That thing is just so soft,and so comforting, and its something that I have that reminds me of my mom.  I have converted Kaika to using that blanket rather than his cute blue blanket given to him as a gift. No No, he will love the silky, and he will keep it forever. And he will be my squishy.  I'm going to go snuggle with him and my our blanket. 

night <3 

day six

Day Six: Post a photo of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day. Why did you choose this person? What do you admire most about their life? What can you do to make your life more fulfilling?

If I could trade places with ANYONE... I would trade places with my step dad, 9 years ago.  I would have made sure he wouldn't have died.  I would have prevented all of this pain and emptiness from happening. I would have made sure my family would have never been torn apart.  I also would have loved to switch lives with him because he truly was the most amazing man I have EVER met.  He had zero enemies.  He had the stupidest jokes, he was so sweet.  He was compassionate, and charming, and honestly the greatest guy I have ever met.  I hated him when I first met him.  And I mean I HAAAAATED him.  My mom and dad had just divorced, and there this guy was.  Trying to act like my dad. Screw that. I did everything to sabotage the  relationship between him and my mother.  And no matter how rude I was to him, he was always so kind.  He would have me over and let me play on his computer, buy me slurpees, and just talked to me like he was a friend and not trying to replace my dad.  I ended up loving him as my father.  Don't get me wrong I love my dad so much, but Pop was special.  He showed us all how to love.  I mean even my Dad was friends with him.  How often is the ex husband and husband friends?! Uhhh never.  I just wish he was still alive.  It's been 9 years since he went missing to this day...and it still hurts just as much.  Tomorrow Sonny, Ikaika and I are going into Vegas...and we're going to go visit Pops grave.  This will be the first time I bring Ikaika there, and it hurts so much to know that he will never get to teach him how to change the oil or the spark plugs in the car like he taught me.  I hate January. I miss Pop so much.  And I am going to strive to be more like him so I can have him with me always. 

RIP Richard Charles Carno.  You are the greatest man, I will ever know. 

Two ducks are in a bath tub one duck says, "hey can you pass me the soap?"  The other one says, "what do I look like a radio!?"

day five

Day Five: Post a photo of your favorite memory. Why is this your favorite memory? What made it so special?

 

This is a tough one. Favorite memory of all time?! I don't have just one.  I have SOOOOOO many. Seriously, I could post pictures for days on this post.  So many great memories. This picture though was a GREAT memory.  It was right before I left for the Air Force. Ayana took Michelle and I to Vivid (what is now Toa) We got trashed. Beyond trashed in fact.  Sex on The Beach was the drink of choice, and I'm pretty sure we each had AT LEAST 10 of them. This bed that we are so seductively posing on was behind the bar and we were the only ones allowed on there. Yeah, we're that good.  Anyway, it was seriously SO MUCH fun.  I remember Shell and I were done for so we called Larry (whom I had the biggest crush on at the time) to pick us up. Luckily he was right down the street.  So we're walking through the Venitan wasted, holding on to each other, trying to find the front doors to meet Larry.  By this point my shoes were off, and I'm walking barefoot around the casino actin a fool.  When we found Larry we jumped in his truck.  Shell threw up quite a few times and all I remember was that her barf was bright pink.  It was hilarious.  That was so much fun.  I always have so much fun with my lover.  Good times, good times.  We actually were just talking about this last week when she was in town.  Gosh that was so much fun.  <3 LOVE YOU LOVER

day quatre

Day Four: Post a photo that best sums up the night you've had tonight. What did you do? Why was it fun?

 

Thursday night was a pretty chill night.  All we did was play with the baby (like we always do) watch some Jersey Shore (like we always do) AND was going to watch Grey's BUTTTT NOOOO it was a freaking rerun again. boooo.  So we just played with Kaika.  We were the only ones home, so I cooked a lemon mustard chicken with rice.  I combined, lemon juice, dijon mustard, pepper, italian dressing, worcestershire sauce, and I think that's it.  It turned out okay...there wasn't enough worcestershire suce though.  So I wasn't the biggest fan of it. 

day drei

Day Three: Post a photo of the cast from your favorite show. Why do you love this particular show so much? Who is your favorite cast member & why?

 

My favorite show is Grey's Anatomy.  Man oh man do I love that show.  I die a little every Thursday once the episode is over.  I could watch it ALL day if possible. I didn't start getting into it until about a year ago.  (I'm caught up with all the seasons) My brother and sister in law Ben and Amanda used to watch it when Sonny and I lived with them and that's why we started watching it.  I can't get enough.  I cry in almost every episode.  Man last seasons season finale I was pregnant, and it was SO INTENSE.  Sonny and I watched it before we went to dinner and a movie with my aunt and uncle and my eyes were blood shot when we met up with them.  My aunt kept asking me if I was okay or if Sonny and I were fighting.  I'd have to say my favorite character is all of them.  I love Christina and Meredith as a pair.  As well as McSteamy and McDreamy.  Dr Bailey is amazing! Cali and Arizona are cute together.  Although they aren't together anymore and Arizona is making me mad.  Alex is such a sweetheart and great in Peds.  Little Grey cracks me up.  And Avery is hot.  I think Christina can do better than Owen but he's good to her.  Tonight is Thursday.  I can't wait to watch the new episode because freaking LAST WEEK was a dang rerun!

day two

Day Two: Post a photo of you & the person you have been the closest with for the longest. Why is this person special to you?

The person(s) I have been closest with the longest are my cousins Cortney & Kristin.  Now, some may say oh but family doesn't count. Wah Wah... I consider these girls my best friends so ha!! Ever since we were young we've always lived next to, or near each other.  Whenever I am having a bad day I call Cort... I'd call Krissy but the hoeski never answers her phone. :) We always have so much fun together.  Man writing this makes me miss them so much.  We seriously have some of the greatest memories and inside jokes. I love them and I honestly don't know what I would do without them. 

LOVE YOU GUYS HOODED HOMIES FOR LYFE!!

day uno

Day One: Post a photo of yourself along with fifteen facts about you.

01. I'm left handed, but I can write (chicken scratch) with my right hand.
02. I have kind of retarded phobias, one being I'm TERRIFIED to order pizza over the phone.
03. I refuse to go swimming at night because I think sharks are going to come through the drain and attack me.
04. I am scared to drive next to semi trucks.
05. I HATE HATE HATE to drive in parking garages.
06. I'm watching my dog try and hump Sonnys leg.
07. I go to school for Sonny online. 
08. I have to count what I'm doing.  (ie: when putting clothes on my son I have to count all the steps)
09. Both my thumbs dislocate and make my hands immobile at least 3 times a day.
10. My aunt is my best friend.
11. I would rather play with my son all day then go out and party.
12. Peter Pan is my ALL TIME favorite movie.
13. I am obsessed with Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen.
14. I can eat a whole tub of ice cream in one sitting if given the chance.
15 . I want to have one more baby.

thirty days of me photo challenge

I've been wanting to do this for months!! So now I've decided its time. I hopefully will be able to do this in thirty days...no guarantees though. But I'm going to try my hardest!!

The List
Day One: Post a photo of yourself along with fifteen facts about you.
Day Two: Post a photo of you & the person you have been the closest with for the longest. Why is this person special to you?
Day Three: Post a photo of the cast from your favorite show. Why do you love this particular show so much? Who is your favorite cast member & why?
Day Four: Post a photo that best sums up the night you've had tonight. What did you do? Why was it fun?
Day Five: Post a photo of your favorite memory. Why is this your favorite memory? What made it so special?
Day Six: Post a photo of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day. Why did you choose this person? What do you admire most about their life? What can you do to make your life more fulfilling?
Day Seven: Post a photo of your most treasured item. Why is this item special to you? How did you come to own this item?
Day Eight: Post a photo that makes you laugh. What made this moment so funny?
Day Nine: Post a photo of the person who has gotten you through the most. What did this person do for you during your troubled time? What made you turn to them out of everyone else in your life?
Day Ten: Post a photo of the person you do the most crazy/silly things with. What is it about this person that makes you able to be crazy/silly? What is your most favorite crazy/silly memory with this person?
Day Eleven: Post a photo of something you hate. Why do you hate this? What is it about this item/person that you despise?
Day Twelve: Post a photo of something you love. Why do you love this? What specifics can you give me about why you live this item/person?
Day Thirteen: Post a photo of your favorite band or artist. Why do you love this band/artist? What song(s) in particular do you love & why? Post the lyrics to your favorite song by this artist/band & bold the ones that hold the most meaning for you.
Day Fourteen: Post a photo of a person you could never live your life without. What is special about this person? Tell me the ten things you love most about them.
Day Fifteen: Post a photo of something you want to do before you die. Why did you choose this? Do you have a plan set in action so you can accomplish this? If not, what can you do to be sure you do this before you die?
Day Sixteen: Post a photo of someone who inspires you. Why does this person specifically inspire you? Can you tell me a story about this person?
Day Seventeen: Post a photo of something that has made an impact on your life recently. Why did this impact you? Was it negatively or positively? What did it make you change in yourself?
Day Eighteen: Post a photo of your biggest insecurity. Why are you insecure about this particular thing? What can you do to change it? Do you want to change it?
Day Nineteen: Post a photo of someone close to you who has passed. Write a letter to them.
Day Twenty: Post a photo of somewhere you would like to travel. Why this location? Is there something special you would like to do there? Describe for me what you imagine your perfect day there would be like.
Day Twenty One: Post a photo of something you want to remember forever. What is special about this memory? Describe the smell, sounds & tastes of that moment. Who were the people with you? What did they do to help make that moment special?
Day Twenty Two: Post a photo of something you wish you were better at. Why do you want to be better at this particular thing? What can you do now to help yourself in being better?
Day Twenty Three: Post a photo of your favorite book. Write down a favorite paragraph. Why did you choose this paragraph? How has this book influenced your life?
Day Twenty Four: Post a photo of something you wish you could change. Can you still change it? What about this would you change & why?
Day Twenty Five: Post a photo that best sums up your day today. What did you do today? What was the best part of your day? What was the worst part of your day.
Day Twenty Six: Post a photo of someone/something that means a lot to you. Why does this item/person mean so much? Tell me the story behind the item & if it's a person, tell me your favorite story about them.
Day Twenty Seven: Post a photo of yourself & an extended family member. Why did you choose this photo? What is so special about this family member? Tell me your favorite memory about them.
Day Twenty Eight: Post a photo of something you're afraid of. Why are you afraid of this? Do you have any irrational fears? If so, what are they? What can you do to try & overcome these fears?
Day Twenty Nine: Post a photo that always makes you smile. What about this photo makes you smile? Is there a story behind it? Who is in the photo? What makes them special?
Day Thirty: Post a photo of someone you miss. Why do you miss this person? Tell me the three things you miss most about this person. Why are they special to you?

first post of the year.

susususlacker... is what I should have named this post. Regardless, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

So, lets see... lets start off with Christmas. 

Christmas was AMAZUHZING. We did Christmas early with my in-laws. We did our family pictures. We were supposed to do them at some ranch, BUT the weather decided that wasn't going to happen.  It was raining ALLLLLL day. So we ended up doing them at my MIL and FIL's house. The color palette was Red, White, and Black. Mostly everyone ended up in black.  The pictures turned out phenomenal though.  I love them.

 

Ikaika and I have to get ready for his WIC appointment so prepare yourself for another post. xoxo